i don't especially care about anything or anyone

i mostly just think about math a lot.

it is very frustrating not knowing how to stop doing something.

last night i dreamed that i was dough.

don't be fragile. don't be fragile. don't be fragile. don't be fragile.

"i kind of
hate art
because its always so something in the air
too much importance
too much pride? and also teaches me about how to use the era of your time wisely.
but sometimes something catches your eye and thats nice. but its very rare
its like same as shopping. or looking at people on the street. 
whatever. beauty is beauty...
beautiful to be remembered and to capture and to display and to be forgotten to be remembered and then forgotten then remembered..."

i think the elastic has worn out

8.19.2016, 8:57pm

"i dreamed about a moth last night, which is supposed to portend sadness, but i am already sad."

"i just feel fear especially when seeing the empty space..."