6.29.2017, unknown time of day

"i was laughing and crying while i apologized, and i pretended to understand the words that were said back to me, but i really only caught harlem and sincere and the warm place. (afterwards i felt like getting drunk, but i just ate some garbanzo beans instead.) anyway, i don't know what to tell you about this apart from that it's been two weeks and i am still a prison guard. i don't know when i will not be a prison guard."

yesterday i went to queens and got a drink at a bar while i was waiting for it to stop raining, and i sat down next to a guy called steve who was a former hospice worker. he was trying to explain his role, and he said "everyone deals with death differently, i was just a tuning fork to help them find their song." then he asked me if i wanted any of his french fries. (i did.)

last night i dreamed my dead grandma was alive but she couldn't hold herself up so i carried her on my back even though i was so tired

8.25.2016, 7:20pm

"and i thought about how i maybe looked psychotic, wearing all black and holding five large bananas."

7.16.2016, 4:25pm

"what if there really is just nothing?"

hi i am upstate for a friend's birthday and am fairly positive the place is haunted. (the current plan is to get v. drunk and sleep with the lights on and look straight ahead.)

5.21.2015, 2:54pm

"my heart feels itchy."

"if too much matter is crammed into one place, the cumulative force of gravity becomes overwhelming, and the place becomes an eternal trap, a black hole. here, according to einstein’s theory, matter, space and time come to an end and vanish like a dream."

7.31.2016, 7:33pm

"i also found out the beach house was haunted, which i already knew. and today i accidentally cut my finger open making summer rolls, but they still tasted pretty good."

8.28.2018, 8:38am

 "i am mainly writing in here because i don't want to invalidate people on social media."